fisshyhd:

Roses are Red, Violets are Blue, I Couldn’t imagine my life without you, We may be young and we may be Short, But all i know is i want to spend the rest of my life with you <3

I love you babe <3

I love you too & more boo <3

infinite-withyou:

fisshyhd:

lyk omg guise i laave her so much <3

<3 :D 

now i think of it . Paul and Ethan are very different in ways . 

• Paul D’pong ; my grade , my class, taller than me , smarter , nice , beautiful eyes <3 & athletic. The only thing is , i dont have anything in common with him really i always felt so awkward with him because i wouldnt know what to talk about. I’ve tried breaking up with him 3 months ago which didnt work because he said he liked me so much . Now at the end , we still have nothing in common still likes me .

• Ethan Holmes ; one grade older than me , moving onto high school next year , smarter , nice , shorter than me , really fun to talk to & again athletic. The thing is ; hes leaving next year . Theres always facebook right ? Ethan & i have tons in common i guess you can say we can always talk about things. 

Paul told me on Saturday ; ” So who r u going to be with, just tell me your decision on Monday ” Sandra told me this morning ” he’s sorta moving on” Tomorrow morning ; im gonna say ” sandra told me you’re moving on. so, what’s the point of holding you back from moving on and going through life . im not gonna hold you back anymore paul ” I just want our friendship back . please .

- sometimes ill just lay in my bed and think about what im gonna do the next day. I honestly really love school even though im not so smart but i love being with people. Now , after all these rumors about me spread i sit here in the middle of the night crying , just bawling my eyes out just because i did a crappy job of breaking up with someone and not thinking about anything else .

- If i ever had the chance to re do this . i would have ; broke up with him clearly then make it official im single then wait a couple of weeks before i actually say yes. Not like im not happy right now , i am ethan makes me happy. Just because of me i made ethan and his best friend get into a fight.

- If i really think about this the only reason this is happening is cause of marko and i . I did a crappy job of breaking up with him . It’s markos fault too some what cause he started the rumor. 

- The quote ” 11:11 comes twice a day because everyone deserves a second chance ” really speaks to me because people need to learn from lessons right ? 

- Today i lay here at 1:41 am thinking about what’s gonna happen tomorrow i wonder if im gonna get the ” -cough- slut ” comments.  Cause of what i did i just lost a good friend cause i broke his heart . i want him to be happy , i think it’s best if he went to find someone else to be happy with. 

slut |slət|

noun

a slovenly or promiscuous woman.

promiscuous |prəˈmiskyoōəs|

adjective

1 derogatory (of a person) having many sexual relationships, esp. transient ones : she’s a wild, promiscuous girl.

• (of sexual behavior or a society) characterized by such relationships : they ran wild, indulging in promiscuous sex and experimenting with drugs.

I swear guys i have never had sex before and i wont until i get married . I dont understand how people call me a slut. Yeah i get the point where im never single , but you would date the person you liked if they liked you back espically when you dont really like your boyfriend/girlfriend anymore right ( well not as much ) . I try my best to ignore to ignore these words but they keep popping up .

If these people really knew me they would know i would never cheat on anyone cause nobody deserves it . This is were i really hate rumors . 

These people dont know how many times i thought about suicide cause of them just because i hate people calling me names. I always think about what my mom said to me ” you cant do anything when people call you names right ” It’s true you cant .

i dont know what to do with my life .

I have 2 guys that i both like liking me at the moment. I feel bad for paul because im dating ethan but sadly i didnt tell paul the truth. Im always scared about what to say to him . i’m never good with break ups and stuff like that. Honestly facck guys. What did i do wrong , i do want a break from paul .